If this love is what we say it is, I'm sure we will go far...

364

It's almost that time of the year again. 364 days down, one more to go until a whole new year begins.
2010 was a year full of unexpected events for me. I can't complain though, because every single adventure I was in this year made me learn something new about life. Of course, like I've said before in past posts I met amazing people who I'll truly never forget and will always have a place in my heart.
I have no idea what 2011 has in store for me, but I've learned that you can't just sit around and expect things to ''happen''. If you want something you really have to get up and work for it.
I look back into the months and I don't have any regrets, because at one point everything I did was want I wanted except one thing.
I feel like I'm shutting down, I can't seem to share my feelings with anyone anymore at least not like I used to. Every time I'm upset and somebody notices it I just try to lie and bury whatever is bothering me inside.
I should be able to communicate those feelings, and part of the reason I started a blog was for that but sometimes I just feel like what is the point? Nothing anyone says is going to make me feel better and I just shut myself pretending everything is okay. It really bugs me, because I know I need to change that, but I just can't as hard as I try but I guess sharing this with you guys is the first step.
That's going to be one of my new years resolutions, to share my feelings and hold very little inside.
Sometime between tonight and tomorrow I'm going to finish writing my New Year's Resolution's list and I will probably share it with you guys. I got a pretty neat post coming up tomorrow so make sure you check it out.
Happy 364th night of 2010!

''The Grown Ups World''

''Life is full of surprises''  I'm sure all of you have heard that line before, I sure have and I never actually realized how true that statement was until this past week.

Life is full of surprises and unexpected twists. We all live in our own little world and don't realize there's more to life than what our daily routine let us see. 

I feel like I'm a journey learning so many things lately, good and bad and now I'm in a battle with myself.

I'm seventeen and I've been acting like a spoiled little girl all my life, and now I feel forced to grow up. I find myself in a new environment. I don't feel like I'm in a playground anymore, instead I find myself slowly stepping into the ''grown ups world''.   I don't know if I like it, I don't want all these responsibilities quite yet to be honest. Why is it that we only have ''officially'', ''legally''  eighteen years to ''play'' around? That's not even half of our life. After those eighteen years, we have to start worrying about our future, why can't we play for a bit longer?  Some of you may be thinking ''Oh she is taking it too far, it's not the end of the world you can still be a kid''  And yeah, you are right you can still be a kid at heart but now you don't have all day to play around, because your clock is ticking and you have to take advantage of every minute that goes by. 

I just feel overwhelmed, I didn't think it was going to happen this soon. 

But other than being a little stressful, the ''grown ups world'' doesn't feel that bad.
I finally feel in control of my life and well I'm going to give it my best shot. 

Christmas

In less than an hour it will officially be Christmas.

To be honest I'm not in the mood for writing anything, but I haven't updated this in a couple of days and it's Christmas Eve so I feel like I should write at least something small.

I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas, I wouldn't want anybody out there feeling the way I do tonight. 

For some reason I thought Thanksgiving was that time of the year when I feel the saddest but I was wrong, it's Christmas but I'm not going to ruin your holiday with my depressing stories tonight.

I just wanted to say that I hope you all remember what Christmas is really about. Of course the gifts are great, but have you ever really thought about it? Why is it that you get presents this time of the year or sometimes any other day such as in your birthday for example? It's because you are appreciated and loved. 

I know that not everybody gets presents but that doesn't mean you are not loved, sometimes there is no money specially around these times where the economy has gone downhill. 

Just remember that this is that time of the year when you let go of grudges, forget about the past and open up your heart. 

Merry Christmas!

Happiness

Happiness,

According to the dictionary happiness means the quality or state of being happy. But what does happiness mean to each one of us? I decided to find out, here are your answers:

''Being with someone you love''

-Brandon Vick

''Happiness is when everyone around you loves you for who you are''

-AJ Williamson

''I would say I'm happiest when I'm helping others''

-Adam Kwiatkowski

''I think happiness comes from random parts of life and depends on

your attitude towards life if you are positive you'll be happier more

often it comes and goes for me''

-Cody Adams

''I think happiness is feeling content to the point where you aren't

chasing something to fill a void, or to distort the way you see reality''

-Scott Miliman

''Happiness is being surrounded by the ones you love''

-Trevor Hsu

''Happiness comes from my friends. Not just their company, but

knowing that they will always be there for me. Having the ones

you love right beside you is one of the most beautiful things a

person can have''

-Amy Kim

Happiness seems to come from our relationships with others, our friends, family, lovers. But not just people we have establish relationships with, it can also come from helping those in need.

They may be our neighbors, classmates, or complete strangers. Helping others doesn't just give us joy but it makes the receiver joyful as well and what is better than putting a smile on somebody's face?

Happiness to me means a lot of different things, but nothing makes me feel happier than helping others. Giving is one of the best feelings in the world, and now that Christmas is only two weeks away, why not put a smile on somebody's face? Perhaps a child who's lost it all or maybe a lonely neighbor. This Christmas don't just think about you and your wish list, think about what you can do for somebody else.

But before I wrap this up I have a question what is happiness to you?

Secrets

What is a secret?

se·cret

   [see-krit] Show IPA

–adjective

1.

done, made, or conducted without the knowledge of others:secret negotiations.

2.

kept from the knowledge of any but the initiated orprivileged: a secret password.

3.

faithful or cautious in keeping confidential mattersconfidential; close-mouthed; reticent.

Yes, secrets are information we don't want others to know but a few chosen ones.

Everyone has secrets, some of us hide big secrets, some of us present ourselves naked on stage with nothing to hide and some of us choose to be a mystery.

What if your lover isn't who you think they are? What if they are not telling you everything? Started as an innocent game and now you are playing games with the devil.
You may think you are protecting them but if you love them, don't they deserve to know the truth? I know you can't sleep at night, but how do you think he feels? He is living a lie.

Sooner or later the truth will come out, and he will be asking what took so long?

I know you meant no harm, but he deserves to know. It may jeopardize your friendship, but you have to do what's right. You know something that he doesn't.

The sun is coming down it's almost dark, the stars will be shining in no time but your secret won't. It is hidden underground where it can't be heard or seen, but remember the truth always comes out in the end so don't wait too long my dear.